If I ever was a singer...

... I would wanna be part of the Celtic Woman group. Or something like them. I really wish I can hear them in live... someday... somewhere... 

I love their voices, the composing of music, dresses... Orchestra playing for them! And they are beautiful. I would love to work with David Downes! What he does, the vision he has, mixing of all the knowledge, experiences and fresh ideas he has... simply amazing.

My favorite voice is Lisa Kelly. It's just... when I watch her sing I feel her. My voice is similar to her's. And I love songs she does and her face mimics. 

I wish I was brave enough to pracitce more and do more from my music tallent. I get sad when I remember I am just averege, nothing really special. And I do sing since I could speak but never really professional. My parents thought I didn't need any extra attention, good enough for church quiar. And later school. And later youth quiar. And even older church quiar. At the end I interfeered even in girls quiar. But that is defenitely not enough. Some character from my favorite film revealed the mystery of his success: "I love. And that is enough." Do I love enough? Do I dare enough? Can I boldly make new step in my singing career? 

Right in front of me is new beginning. I want it! I wanna do it. I wanna dedicate myself to that. I wanna do more then my best. I love singing! I cannot live without it!

"You raise me up! So I can stand on mountains!" Music keeps me going, makes me laugh again in tough times, takes me on journey through hell and brings me back to sunny surface. When I sing... I feel up there somewhere, flying free from worries, tears, sadness... I feel so alive and perfect freedom. My voice... please, help me. Oh please...  

"Listen, my child," you say to me
"I am the voice of your history
Be not afraid, come follow me
Answer my call, and I'll set you free" (The Voice - Celtic Woman)

I wish I could sing to someone. For someone. Relaxed. Loved. Listened. Cherished. Respected for my singing. I wish somebody told me I was special. And that I could believe that. 

"When the sun sets the water on fire
When the wind swells the sails of your hire
Let the call of the bird on the wind
Calm your sadness and lonliness
And then start to sing to me
I will sing to you" (Send me a song - Celtic Woman)

And dreams that you dare to dream... maybe do come true?